Happiness

It has been some time since I updated my blog. I have been so busy with my club as there will be a big event coming up. Besides, assignments and tests are coming up. Well, I guess I start to enjoy my life. I sing everyday with a karaoke app. I watch dramas, I spend most of my time with my friends and family, and I realize that time really flies. It's end of August now. My second year of degree is ending so soon. What I have learnt is that, not all friends will stay with you forever. Not all of them would treat you like how you treat them. True friends don't leave, and they will be with you no matter what happens, and that is what I need. Make yourself happy, and people around you will be happy. This is what I believe. 

I'm Suffering

I'm suffering. These two weeks is going to be tough for me. Studying from morning until night, and yet I'm still scared that I can't finish studying. Finance is never easy ): I'm so stressed out lately. How I wish there's someone here for me whenever I cry.There were too many things happened to me, they did affect me throughout these few months. I'm getting back up. I am. It has been tough for me, but everything is back into place. I can be happy and cheerful without depending on others. Burning midnight oil is bad for my health, but just bear with it for these two weeks, I swear, I will take care of myself.

The Beginning of the Journey

I have learnt a lot of things from my past. Although they were painful to remember, but I'm glad that I have grown up. Maybe what Cindy said was right, they have made me stronger. There's nothing to be sad of. In fact, I should be happy that they made me to become stronger than I used to be.

I learn to stand back up. I learn how to love myself. I learn to be independent. I started to pursue my dreams. Everyone must have their own dreams. I should be thankful that all the past experiences had led me here. Although it wasn't easy, but I made it.

'Nicole is so good in her results'. Well, other people may not know how much I had sacrificed for that. Everything needs hard work. If you do nothing, do not expect you will get something. People do not understand why I have to sacrifice so much for studies, and why studies seem so important to me. To me, it is not about important or not. Whatever I want to do, I will strive for it. If I want to do something, I will try my best.

I have thought about my future, like what I want to do in the future. I may not go for what I'm studying now. That's fine. I have found my interest in beauty and dancing. Anything can happen in the future, it just depends on ourselves. This is what I believe. I go for dance practices now. Of course, it is not easy. I injured my legs, but I will not give up on it. I found my passion in dancing. Not only going for classes, I also manage the dance club of my college. I can say that I love to do what I'm doing now, I'm learning. And I realize student life is actually not all about studies. I'm learning to manage my time properly. Having a busy life is not too bad.

I will go for a beauty course after pursuing my degree too, and maybe I will start up my own beauty business. Who knows? I'm just doing what I love to do, and I'm happy.

Always do what you love to do.

A New Chapter.

This blog isn't a new one, but I had deleted the previous posts due to some reasons. For those who had read my posts before, I am sure you all know what I had been through lately, especially from the beginning of the year. It wasn't easy for me to get through all of that. I had been standing all these pain, holding back my tears and telling myself that it will be okay. After getting hurt again and again, I don't know if I can stand back up again, and keep on smiling like how I used to. No matter what happened in the past, I'm going to let them be, and no matter what happen in the future, I'm going to face all of them by myself. Today, I'm strong enough to do so. 

'Nicole Choon. I like the way you used to be'. I'm sorry. I know I did change a lot ever since the heart-breaking incident. I was trying to hide my feelings and showing the others that I'm okay. I wanted to tell people that I'm strong, and that it was not a big deal to me, and I could get back up without depending on anyone. No matter how hard I cried at night, I told myself that it would be just fine in the next morning. I smiled to my friends, but I was hurt deeply in my heart. I wanted to be happy and forget all my past. Everything in the past was too painful to remember. I tried to make myself happy, that was my intention. However, I realize that no matter what I do, nothing can be changed. I just need more time to get things right, I am really sorry to make you all worry, especially my family and best friends. Cindy is my best friend. She is here no matter what happens to me. At the moment I hug her, there must be something wrong. She is the one whom I can depend on. I really appreciate her really much for these years. She has been seeing me getting hurt, 'You know it isn't easy for me, Cindy'. 

But today, I'm here. I love myself more now. I learn how to appreciate those who treat me truly. I know what are my priorities now, and I know what I really want. I know that I have disappointed many of you. I'm sorry. Nicole is going to be back, just awhile more, she will.